- I said at beginning of 2018 I want to link my yoga practice and writing.
- Having a practice involves being in the process of practicing
- Which mostly involves working on self judgments
- Going off course from your practice can be a way to witness how you are towards yourself, punishing and judgmental or neutral?
- This happens with yoga for me as I have an ideal or intention for my home practice:
- I will go to bed early every night for the purpose of waking up earlier in the morning and developing a morning yoga practice
- Today for the first time in weeks I followed the morning plan and pulled out the yoga map upon awakening and did yoga for 20 minutes while annoying morning program was on (not my choice)
- My home yoga practice has always involved accepting whatever is going on in the environment including TV, and doing yoga anyway. There is no zen garden or yoga meditation room. It’s like doing yoga in the subway sometimes, not that I’ve tried that!
- I am noticing more quickly how yoga can be a reminder and a reset button for the day or the next hours, reminding me to slow down and be in the moment
- It’s weird that first thing in the morning I can’t easily do Ploughing Pose, for example, reminding me that the asanas are always different and repeating them in a different moment you notice where you’re at which won’t be the same tomorrow on or off the mat
- I’ve been wanting my daily yoga practice to translate into food choices and struggles and constantly frustrated that it doesn’t “work”.
- Probably I’ve heard too many yoga experts talk about how doing yoga helps you make healthy food choices
- It’s not true for me. I want that benefit but it hasn’t magically happened.
- A lot of food stuff is ADHD. I remember over 20 years ago, when I didn’t know about my ADHD, on starting vegetarianism, I noticed it made food easier because it limited food choices immensely. ADHD means I get overwhelmed by too many choices of food, have struggles planning ahead for it as planning is already difficult… so being able to bypass 20 other menu choices and have 2-5 choices or bypass a lot of stuff in a food market was a great thing I hadn’t thought of til it happened.
- Self discipline is extremely hard for the ADHD mind, which gets excited by going down irrelevant paths, enjoying them and then feeling lost and unable to come back to whatever it was that the focus was supposed to be.
- Maybe I should approach the food like my comic strip. Found a daily strip already limits me and makes it easier to do a comic. Then I started having Tuesdays be Affirmations Day and Thursdays be Gender Day. Then I found a theme for Mondays. I’m hoping I can do something for Fridays too.
- Thus the more specific and structured and limiting, the easier time my ADHD mind has of disciplining itself.
- Maybe food should work this way too. My daughter has “sushi Thursdays” and “Wednesday special dinner out”; maybe I could have foods on particular days!
- I’m just figuring this out now, so I will try to figure out a plan and see if the daily comics approach to food works better than the other stuff I’ve tried, and I’ve tried all sorts of things to make my eating more healthy and “mindful”.
- Perhaps there can be days for healthy stuff and days for “treats”. That way the schedule isn’t associated as much with denial and reward system which wreaks havoc on the ADHD already confused relationship to food…
I’m very into bunnies of all kinds. I made some little environments for these tiny bunny erasers from Target.
Here are those:
Here is the link to the medieval bunnies killing people (ME-DIE-VAL!):
My new writing challenge involves keeping to the point and organizing ideas so I will try that and delete the long disorganized piece I just wrote.
FYI, if you read this blog you know the fun part of adult ADHD is coming to realize something new, finding it really cool and exciting, and also realizing, EVERYONE ELSE ALREADY KNEW THIS, so they won’t want to hear about it. That means BLOG about it!
- Issue: Setting the following rules with myself about reading that are no longer useful and that I hardly ever follow!
- Choose the book with some rational reason for wanting to read it.
- If you start and get further than a few pages, you must read the whole book.
- You must read the book in the order it was written, start to finish.
- My relationship to reading and books and writing has changed drastically over 45ish years.
- Thus, this framework is old, not useful, ineffective, and doesn’t fit my current relationship to reading.
- The rules are now connected erroneously to some idea about ADHD and following those rules meaning you are doing the right thing to address the ADHD, thus resulting in the ADHD trap of feeling like you can’t do things other people do with ease.
- Read plot and content summaries.
- Look at Table of Contents and Index.
- Read a small part of a random page in the middle of the book.
- Choose part of the book and read that only.
- Don’t read the book in page number sequence. Pick and choose.
- If appropriate, check out the paper, the font, the layout and the visuals.
- I have a deep reverance for books shaped by my childhood and adolescence, of which books played a huge and extremely positive part.
- Working with ADHD tendencies instead of against them is a more effective strategy.
- I can allow myself to apply that to reading.
- It is more fun to do the above things with a book.
- It doesn’t mean I don’t read all books start to finish.
- I only recently discovered audio books and realized I had a bunch on my “BOOKSHELF”, and wasn’t finishing them, so it can apply to audio books as well.
- Switching from fiction to non fiction is a big switch and obviously involves changing how I read those books.